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"I'm around sometimes"

I know I haven’t been there,
I’m absent,
I’m absentminded
I’m one of those people,
Adrift in my own world
I need an anchor,
An anchor to hold me tight
I’m hard
Been through too much to mention
I’m over
Over whatever you have to say
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Three students at my college have died this past year, this is for them...

2009 School year- Death of 3 students

We’ll let the bells toll
Three times
Once for the little girl
Lost in the flames
A crash of thunder sounds so loud,
Deafening the world
We cry endless tears
Once for a young man
Faded away without a whisper
Our own voices echo his
So that they mean everything
Once for another young man
Free to soar through the clouds
A child new
And lost to us.
We cry our bitter tears
We hold each other together
Family and friends
We clasp hands
And Remember…
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I am both happy and sad....

So this quote pretty much describes my life right now.

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be." -"The Perks of Being a Wallflower"

That is a totally awesome book by the way.

I suppose I should update my life for anyone who's listening....I know I mostly just post poetry and the odd fic or two, but I'm trying to change that lol...I originally got this to act as a journal, since I figured it'd be easier than trying to write in a paper journal...(haha)

I am in my last semester of college and it's crazy right now....I'm totally not ready to be an adult and be fully responsible for my on life...I don't know where I want to go, who I want to be....or anything really. =/

Everyone around me is so happy and so involved with each other...and...I don't know, I just feel rather disconnected from everything...not all the time though, just sometimes it hits me and I feel like a can't breathe from the weight of it all. I guess I just feel like my friends are all growing closer together and I'm getting left behind....I don't like it, but at the same time I don't know what to do about it. My roommates both just got boyfriends

My birthday is Friday, and I'm not really even looking forward to it...it should be a happy day, but I just can't seem to get into it...my friends all want to go to the bar on thursday to celebrate my birthday, and my other friend's birthday (which is on weds)...but I can't really say that I want to go....it's not really my scene. I don't enjoy drinking that much and big loud drunken crowds bother me.

I just want to do something fun and quiet, but I don't feel like I can say anything. I get teased enough for not wanting to drink....but it's a personal choice. (I'm a control freak what can I say.) I almost just want to get out of here and do something...go somewhere...just drive around and take in the sights or something....

I'm tired of being tired...if that makes any sense...and I'm sick of feeling so outside of everything...I don't really know what to do... *headdesk* Maybe it's just the post-valentine's day blues or something...

till next time....
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Broken hearts can't trust so easily

Feeling lost and a little misunderstood
The way to my heart
Is not the way you’re walking
You need to take it slow
I can’t say I love you
Because I don’t know
I’ve been hurt before
Too much
I’m not sure what to say
I don’t believe in love at first sight
‘Cause first sight got me hurt
I can only give so much
Before I break
And I'm falling apart already
What do you want me to say?
I’ve given you all I can
The wounds are still so raw
I need some support
Not another lover
A friend
At least for a while
I can’t do this on my own
I’ve been on my own too long
Be patient with me
I need to take it slow
So give me some room to breathe,
But don’t leave me out in the cold
The way to my heart
Is a long journey
And it will not be unchanged.
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Time to grow up

Break it up boys and girls
It’s time to say goodbye
We’ve got to grow up,
Before it’s too late
And we’ve lost our time
It’s our moment to shine
We’ve got to take it
So say goodbye to Peter Pan
Leave him behind in Neverland
We've lost our chance to fly
Our feet must remain on the ground
But it’s alright;
Our heads are full of ideas
And we can smile
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The Sky is Falling

Feeling like it’s all falling apart,
Like the sky is falling all around me
And no one believes in what I say
What else can I do?
I’m like the hero in a story,
That everyone laughs at
But I know I’m right
It’s like a children’s nursery rhyme
Repeating in my head
Running around in circles
Talking about the weather
It’s all a silly game
Just a silly game
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An Ancient Youth

They look down on me because they say I am young
But I do not feel young
For isn’t it said that the young are inexperienced?
And I can say that I have experienced much
I have lived through war and peace
I have lived through flames and ice
I have lived through sorrow and joy
Love and loss…
So how can they say I am young?
When I have seen so much
But oh, how I wish I were still young
To be able to feel
Careless joy and abandon
Freedom to love without restraint
I wish my wings were unfettered so I could soar again
Now they look to me because they say I am young
That the young are the hope for the future
But I do not feel young
So where is the hope that they believe in?
For it is not with me…
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The Geese

I can hear them crying
Their voices echoing off of each other
Like such mournful souls
Searching for a place to land
They soar over the grey skies
Carrying their stories with them
And as I look to their arrival
Their proud arching necks
I feel the first flake of snow
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The nay-sayers

I am young
And they told me I was too much so
I am naïve
And they told me I was too inexperienced
I am afraid
And they told me I didn’t care
I am shy
And they told me I was cold
I dared to do
And for once they didn’t have anything to say